Sometimes life sucks.
There I said it.
Recently, I had two people who know me quite well ask me if I ever feel depressed or sad in life. They said my Facebook feed is the most inspiring and positive part of their day and wondered if I ever have a bad moment in life.
And while I’m so grateful that I inspire them, I want you all to know something: my life is a normal every day life. I pay bills and have breakdowns. I wait in line at the RMV while trying not to let anger overwhelm me. And I certainly have those days when I do not want to get out of bed.
But here’s the thing yogis, I CHOOSE to get out of bed. I choose to look at the positive and always look on the bright side and I choose to portray all of that online. I believe in counting my blessings and always looking for gratitude in life, so when I’m at the RMV I bring a book like Eat Pray Love or bring my notebook to write love letters to myself or friends.
I’ve been through it. The moments of depression where getting out of bed is actually impossible. I have been in a darkness so thick that it was more comforting to stay there in the darkness than to travel to the light. I had months of crying and paralyzation. I have had betrayal and loss. And I never, ever want to go there again.
During my senior year of college, I emerged from this state and opened my eyes and my soul. I finally felt whole and cleansed and AWAKE. I felt alive. I realized where I had been for months and decided I wanted zero part of that every again. I told my supervisor Stephanie that I have no time for sadness if I can be happy every day… and then I skipped myself down the street onto the next San Fran attraction.
So much has changed since this photo that hair has gone through some MAJOR transformations, but so has my heart. I have had my ups and downs and only once more did it get to the point where I needed to ask for help. But I try every single day to count my blessings. I try to make my meals count, the flowers I purchase for our home, the lack of traffic, the gift of a flower growing through the crack in the sidewalk or even the very gentle sound of Apollo breathing. I am grateful for it all because I understand what soul crushing sadness feels like and I will never go there again.
The negative in being positive all the time is that no one ever believes you have bad days. No one thinks you take life seriously and some people believe you are fake. These things are entirely untrue. As my friend Susie said: “If anyone in real life knows you, they know your Facebook feed is 100% YOU!” And it is.
I choose to see joy. I choose to see love. Don’t get me wrong yogis I have bad days just like the rest of the world, but I deal with them by holding on to love and recognizing the lessons I am being served. I deal with them by allowing my true feelings to arise (sadness or anger) and allowing them to pass. I deal with bad days in meditation and naps and hugs.
May you have love in your heart.
May you never suffer.
May you always see the lessons.
May you count your blessings.
May you honor your feelings: all of them.
May you give love.
May you receive love.
May you live with a peaceful heart.
May you find joy.
May you find deep belly laughs, sunshine days and good friends.
May you dive into books or music or love.
May you create a life you love.
May you find pure joy.
This is my wish for you today yogis. Hold it to your heart. Say it out loud and remember that there is nothing negative in being positive.
Sending you so much love & light!
Every once in a while I get the opportunity to work with an amazing company and this week I am so pleased to talk to you about The Shine Project.
After a few years on Instagram, I started following mainly yoga folks and a handful of friends. All of the posts I see are full of positivity and light. It’s such an inspiring way to live when the people you follow, talk to or embrace are all on the same page as you are. Through yoga challenges I have found online friends whom I have yet to meet in real life, I have found companies that I am passionately in love with and found true joy in watching others accomplish their dreams.
The Shine Project was one such story. I started following them on Instagram a few months back when I was participating in a yoga challenge and found their quotes, photos and general inspiration to be uplifting and FULL of love. (Seriously, go follow them on Instagram… NOW!) This inspiration lead me to an idea: I love Lululemon and am a die hard fan (even after Chip’s serious mistakes, I understand it’s not the company… it was him). However all my lulu love was blinding me from the rest of the world. There are SO MANY companies that embody a healthy lifestyle, inspire and make really RAD clothes. I went on a journey and found some of the most amazing people in my own (internet) backyard.
This is the first of a few posts where we will be discussing where to purchase amazing yoga clothes from folks that work hard to create a business and life they love and I couldn’t be happier to start with The Shine Project!
One of the main reasons I love them so much is because of their mission. Their main objective is to create and wear CHANGE! By purchasing anything in their shop, you impact the lives of at-risk youth. They employ young first generation college students to empower them, lead them and help them create change in their lives… to help them break the cycle.
The moment I read their mission, I just KNEW I wanted to be a part of it. So I emailed the team and almost immediately received this amazing tank. It’s called the True Success Racer Back Tank and the tank supports Brianna, a first generation college student who plays soccer for her school. She wasn’t sure she was good enough to play in college and ended up making the team! “True success is overcoming the fear of being unsuccessful.” — By purchasing this T-shirt, a portion of the proceeds go towards Brianna’s scholarship fund. Check out her story here, or look at the rest of their collection to fund other students scholarships!
This tank is soft, and flowy. It is perfect for an afternoon yoga class (I wore a simple sports bra underneath) and runs true to women’s sizes for a “flowy” top. I am a medium and although it is a wee bit big, it was perfect as I wouldn’t want it to stick to my body.
Not only is it one of the most comfortable pieces I own, it is also very versatile. In the photos, I am posing for a night on the town but also for yoga! I wore it to teach in the afternoon (a quick non-sweaty flow) and then changed into shorts in order to go bowling with my husband and sister-in-law. It is great for studio or daytime wear. I love the casual feel and fit!
My first experience with The Shine Project was so beautiful! I love this tank and have already worn it in and outside of the studio. I’m so grateful to have found them on this crazy internet yoga family of ours and have my eye on a few beautiful bracelets to bring home next!
Please stop on by Threads by The Shine Project to pick out your purchase for change today. You will NOT regret it!
Get out there — do yoga & make life SPARKLE!
P.s. This is a sponsored post with all opinions being my own. I never promote anything but honesty here!!